whats a girl to do?

so stressed. . .cant think straight. . .i dont even know how i've been making rent these last couple of months. dumb luck or something. tax returns. but those dont come every month and now i'm screwed. i just dont know. i sound like a baby. this is ridiculous. im so mad at myself for being dumb. if i had just gotten a real job after school, i wouldnt be in this mess. so tired of doing nothing with my life. so mad at myself.